The Battle of Heart and Mind

Sometimes, we walk away from something even though it is difficult to do so. Sometimes we do it hoping that we’ll find ourselves back there once again in a wishfully not too distant future. And sometimes we do it knowing that it’s the only way, and nothing else was ever meant to be.

Have you followed your heart and regretted having done so?


The heart is always right, I once thought,

Wise in a way I don’t understand.

Sending signs of a beautiful future,

That is only waiting for me to take a step.


Oh how I have followed my heart,

And bended and groveled, and threw myself at its mercy…

How I’ve rushed to its wants and desires and treaded on its heels abidingly,

Believing that it would take me to where I needed to be. 


But the fickle heart carries no wisdom at all.

It runs and chases and gets carried away.

A brittle leaf on a rapid stream, unaware and uncaring.

Invincible it feels, but oh so severely it breaks,

Into millions of pieces, large and small.  

But learn, it does not.

Who but the heart has such audacity,

To get hurt willingly again and again?


The mind on the other hand, he has wisdom.

Free of enslaving whimsies and emotions that disease the heart,

You can count on your mind to give you sound advice.

Careful and thoughtful it treads.

Measuring and calculating, it does.

It plans, and plans, and plans.


The mind with its realities and analyses

Battles the unreliable craze that is the heart.

High and drugged on romantic thrills,

It pleads and nudges you to ignore your mind. 


Whoever wins the battle, you become.



The Light Bulb

Sometimes, I get an overpowering and extremely interesting thought. It will start off with one idea or question and in a matter of minutes develop into a full-fledged theory in my head. Unfortunately, this usually happens in a very inconvenient time or place, like when I’m about to fall asleep, or during  a road trip, in which I have no inclination or possibility of writing it or recording it somewhere. It’s such a shame because at the moment of conception (so to speak), it seems so innovative and worth exploring.

The problem with voicing such ideas to other people, which I basically never do, is that I know it will not be understood. At least not in the way I have understood it. And no, it’s not because I am more intelligent or capable of having thought processes beyond the average person. It’s because each idea or theory is a result of a series of incoming information that I am processing in a unique way. So unless someone with a very similar mind is exposed to the same information, it will be difficult to relate.

I think this is why I also love talking about films. Because a film, although it is a unique experience to each person, delivers the same exact information to a large number of people. Since everyone is processing the same data so to speak, of course through a personal mental filter, more than likely, you can expect a fair faction of people to relate to your thoughts on that film.

But thoughts based on personal experience or research and knowledge, it’s not so easy for others to relate to or find interesting. It demands many similarities among the individuals. This is probably why support groups are found, because only people who have had similar experiences are able to relate to and help one another.

But on the other hand, if we only tried to communicate with those just like us, we will never obtain new information and ways of thinking. There is something fantastic about the discovery of a new notion. A moment of exhilarating relief when that light bulb goes on. A rush of excitement that such a novel idea exists and has occurred to you. And for that, people have to be willing and not hesitant to share their thoughts and ideas, no matter how strange or complex or unreasonable they may appear. Because let’s face it, all of us live in a small mental bubble of rigidly formed ways of thinking and expectations. There is actually very few new things out there that will not seem strange to us. If you’re open to new ideas however, you can change and adapt yourself. The small rigid mental bubble I described above, is actually not something enforced on us. We can be fluid in our thoughts and beliefs, adapt them and renovate them as we receive more and varying data from our environment. And the only way to do that is not to be afraid of new thoughts and ideas.

Of course, in everything, we have to aspire for a balance. So when I say, welcome new ideas, it doesn’t mean that every other week, you switch to a different political ideology or religion. There are parts of us that perhaps have to remain a bit rigid, so as to give us that sense of belonging and confidence in an ever changing tumultuous world. That can be our family, our religion, our occupation etc. But these core elements of your identity should be as basic as possible, relying on the most general and elementary premise which you know to be true and unflinching. And from that core place, you can still take incoming information and make small renovations as you learn, experience and discover new things… but it will never take away from who you are as a person or cause any traumatic shift in your persona and view. It will only add to you, your character, your depth and understanding as a human being…